feeling better to the best.

Well, This is another same boring post.
How nice???
I feel so delightful and feel satisfied by myself.

There is nothing fcuking feeling excite me while I come through your profile and her blog and his msg status.

I am so much happier than those past days.
How I am happy...YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I am really happy. That's all i can say now.
Its too fast to escape from this complicated situation.

I think, I will seldom look into your updates. its not because I miss you but I need to know how your motive. Nah, Actually, that's not important too. I really don't care and bother of you whatever you do or you are.

HAHAHAH :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I partly know myself that I will never be getting hurt again. Never. Never.
Regardless of how deep or shallow is my feeling, I am
really with big smile now~~~

this blog is a bit of nonsense.
I just kept posting this kinda love affairs lately.

Nontheless, It brings good that posting here made me see the truth quickly rather than keeping inside the mind and feeling complicated.

Writing down in the post made me see clearly and I feel like whenever I write a single word of them, all those words are taken off from my mind and my mind is getting clearer and clearer.

Yes, thats it.

Well

easy to love? easy to forget? I doubt myself what my mind is going on.

May be I didn't truly love you. I can feel that we were just playing game seeing who will fall first. Yes, I fail but I can climb back in the end. Nontheless, I think I can easily heal any hurts now. haha.

I said, I needed to forget you by all means. But, I am no feeling into you right now without using ways. within about 2 weeks, everything's done and I am back to my original mood and so lively me. :)

Thanks to one of my friend too. All his words really wake me up quickly. Thanks!

I am just so glad that I can clear the grey clouds in my sky. :))

Next time, must play safe :P or should quit enjoying mind games with ppl. LOLS.
well, that's my new year joke. I don't play any such childish games.

19/12/2009

It's time to leave my old heavy robe.
I am the one and only one to make a move.
I shouldn't blame to others, weather, environments.
I made a change within myself.


I don't need to hate either November or December.
Everything happens for reasons and it's coincidence or consequence.
all the happened and gone make you better or there are no more caught up in the traps.

All the sadness and sorrow blocks reality.

You and you the only one to get on the right track with your head up.

Among up and down, knocks and falls, you just need to move forward.

Move forward, move forward, move forward.

hurt

It is so hurt.. hurt..
can't stop tearing...

its too hurt...
too painful...

feeling like i m breaking myself into many pieces..
my body is feeling hurt.
the whold body is too hurt..
my chest is so pain.....
my eyes became very red..
omg, pls don't let other notice of my collapse.
i feel too weak...


nin pyaw par say..nin pyaw shwin par say....

14/12/2009

I am afraid of November and December..

Today was also the day for me.

I felt so hurt again..
I can't help..i really can't help...to see you..
I know my mind still can control of trying not to love you..

But, I don't know why..

May be I just want to let you know what's my feeling to him..

Like said, love is like a cloud, holds a lot of rain..

and love is just a lie for me..

why i am still walking in the circle.. when I can only break the chain?

Everybody is moving forward and I am the only one turning back and performing at the past stage...

I really want to leave my old heavy robe..

my current state of mind is hurting.. I just can sense that It feels too hurt..really too hurt..
i don't know..we even didn't have glory stories...but I feels too hurt..
I can feel my chest is too painful now..too painful...too painful..even i can't swallow food well..

and tears are also rolling down much continuously..when i think of you..

To me, I want to escape from your unknown magic magnet..
to you, I want you to be happy..

Save me from this misery.
I want to escape from you.
I want to escape from you.
I want to be free from you..

Awesome you made.

This is another bad-mouthing i ever heard. It's so hurt and so hurt.

Bravo and bravo again!!! to you for hurting me till I collapse.
You have chose the right time again to stab to my center of chest.

I shouldn't be too stupid on his illusion.

Ok, let's make it clear myself!! if not, all the confusion make me so weak and drawn..

Scenario 1: If he's with her for whatever, is it affected me badly?

Answer: If he use her for the purpose of intentionally hurting me, I will see him as he's not strong mentally as I ever thought. I don't wish to be this guy on my walking path.

Scenario 2: If he really loved her in the time being of our short glory, How would you prepare mentally?

Answer: Yes, It did hurt me so as he is so dangerous because he's using two faces for two girls and played well managerially.So?? It's better for me stopping thinking of him by all means and it automatically saves me from his smartly twists. Oh well, YES!!

Ok. That's it.

Thanks her for revealing her blog about them. It saves me from drawing into deep black hole.

13/12/2009

All that he said are Faking.
All that he behaves are changing.

Good Bye for good.

-End-

this is me at this current state of mind

yesterday i saw your status that you were finding her with a bit anger as you can't stand for her absence.

you made me pouring out tears..
that's what i don't wanna feel in this time..why can't you wait the right time to break my heart..

aw, this is another November that i was left behind. I don't want to happen another sadness in December.

That's it.. Once you made me clear, everything related about you were buried.
I was reminded of my-long-time-ago healing time as I noticed that i wanted to be with my head up to go ahead in very quickest way.

what else, i don't have anything. i didn't even own any dreams.
that's it, short story, no glory..that's it..

thanks for your reveal. if not, i would keep being drown in your own illusion...
as my friend said, have to forget him by all means. have to be busy with something. have to think other things when i want to think of him, when i want to find him.

aww, this is like another activity that i must have done successfully. ;)