FLY HIGH

all the best!!
all the best!!
put your best efforts.
you must know that nothing is impossible. will u hear?

HELLO FRIEND.... FLY HIGH LIKE AN EAGLE.

Never get discourage
when things go beyond your expectations,
always remember that
the greatest glory in life is not winning
but rising every time we fall.



I was walking over a tall tree
Suddenly a fruit fell down in my head
And it did hurt me
I look up at the tree and realized
“Do I need to be hurt first before I look up ABOVE?”

Trials don’t come to make us fall
But for us to look above and call.
Trials don’t serve as key to hate
But rather doors to greater faith.

The measure of a matured person
Is not how well they prepare for everything to go right,
But on how they stand up
And move on after everything goes wrong.

If you’re facing any trouble
Don’t ask
“God why me?”
Instead ask
“What do you want me to learn?”
Then trust HIM and keep on doing what’s right
Don’t give up
Just grow up.

“All trials are not the reason to give up
But a challenge to improve ourselves.
Our pain is not an excuse to back out
But an inspiration to move on.”


GOODLUCK FRIEND.
FLY HIGH

Sad

i don't know what should i start.
DAMN.

i get rid of these rubbish things hitting to me.
but why keep attacking me? don't u understand the manner??

its not concern with age or older or younger when it comes to the responsibility.
people want to lead but they are afraid to be hated.what that attitude?

don't u know the reason??? at least ur soul know what's the truth though u said unfairly.

i lead my way. don't step over and i will not bother it. u go with ur standard.
i damn hate it.

Thanks for teaching me so much for those pain, words, looks..

:: time is so harsh::

Started from 26th

my mp and job attachment??


it's only the matter of time..
for me, i wish processing the procedure was quickly finished and
i wish it only took less than 5 days for my visa things.. impossible huh?

next, who gonna be in my MP? this osip is complicated.

anyway,be prepared for everything.

MP, jobs, crts.

good luck and wish me the best.


all the good deeds and all constructive improvments in 2009..
all the happiness and healthiness to my family and to all buddies.

Time....

I have many to-do list.
come 1 by 1.

I miss pho ni so much..and my mom, my dad, and so on..
wanna back but a lot of things coming downing to me. I must take all. so, just fold it out 1st.

oh.thanks god that i had chances to meet up with my old friends..what a nice reunion...
whatever it is, for being gone through around 3 years, it's strong enough the attachment and unity than my 2nd mother school. I should put more value to those time and them. yes. time speaks louder..
I frequently thought back about the past schooling..what a nice and enjoyable and never irreplaceable memories i owned..there were countless...really countless..awww..
i had golden memory and great time and great life with my friends there...
i cherish...and i should never forget...now i woke up for it...

i wish for more gathering...when we meet again, we will be proud with our own successes..

I must cherish...cherish...

time is like a cycle for me..i believe it and i believe in coincidence.

down.

must quickly finish days and nights.

Time is packed.

1. MCSD
2. TRIF

due on 8th December.

=sad=

when i woke up in this morning, sip incharge called me for no subsidy of airfare.
I think i must think back again...
usually they subsides up to S$1000 for air ticket..
I don't know why it changed to no subsidy for it..
that incharge never make me clarify whatever i asked.
I must ask him again.
but tired to ask. damn.
I don't want to make my fate myself, I must clarify it again.
If the chance is favourable, i will take.
If not, just do the best for what i get.
I need to get advice from my parents.
and need to ask him again to confirm that facts.

I think i still can't reduce my expense on phone bills..
my parents keep scolding me as i use both int'l card and my hand phones for calling them.
I also can't terminate my old number coz that number is only different 1 digit with my my h.p from my country.

i must spend wisely from now on wards especially for phone bills.


:: Time is limited ::

jue qiang ai zhe ni

許願 - 古巨基和梁詠琪





good songs..
thanks..
uploaded to listen at anywhere at anytime...

Sorry

I am sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you but I must tell you sometime.
I know this may arise unhappiness between us.
but I kept set my goal lower and lower because of you.
sometime, I want to be alone to handle everything rather than taking care and worries for the mistakes you did because it makes me tired and absorbed my energy too much more than usual.

I wish you understand my willingness and
I wish you see your mistakes and weakness.

raining heavily but I am not happy.
my mind is so confused of recent matters.
its better to swallow my words than speaking out.
I don't want you to be sad and feel small also.

Let it be!

如果你也听说

(If You’ve Heard Too)

suddenly realising i’ve stood still for a long while, not knowing where to go
the me that still doesn’t want to return home, only gets lonelier when accompanied by more people。
there has been many topics concerning me, even I’ve heard of them
my happiness has to be recognised, yet my grievances are not spoken of
the night peels the heart like an onion, what remains after it is removed of its defence?
why is it i miss you much more when i am weak and fragile ?
if you’ve heard too, have you thought of me?
as the usual old friend or would you still be concerned about me?
there is so much i wish to tell you
one heart is left hanging without landing
how to be responsible, can’t bear to, but also helpless
if you’ve heard too, will you believe me?
would you go along with the rumors or you know that i am still me
understanding a lot more after the falls and knocks
you are the only one waiting for me
the warmth still resides in my chest when i think of you thinking of me
there has been many topics concerning me, even i’ve heard of them
i think i would rather be silent as explaining would only seem to be for show
the night peels the heart like an onion, what remains after it is removed of its defence?
why is it i miss you much more when i am weak and fragile?
if you’ve heard too, have you thought of me?
as the usual old friend or would you still be concerned bout me?
understanding a lot more after the falls and knocks
you are the only waiting for me
the warmth still resides in my chest when i think of you thinking of me
if you think of me, what would you think of?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~@@@@@@@@@@@@@@~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I really was no mood today. I just need to wait for what's coming to me.
why people make the things to become important and all the matters of world?
why can't let the things just go by as they are??
I feel that I was disturbed by that way? Instead, I should be said properly with some kinda reasons.

It doesn't matter for me whatever may come to me. I can be accepted.

its good that you didn't reply me...thanks.

frustrated

at least you should reply my email.
you changed your number too.
i didn't know what's the problem with you and your work.
I just only know you resigned work recently.

i do wish everything's ok there!

that remind me.

When I went through to your friendster profile,Suddenly, I saw the photo comments you gave in one old photo. I was surprised how all the comments you deleted appeared again in your profile. Anyway, I was happy for the last comment you gave on dec because, i never see it before. that comment is after we broke up and after few months, you wrote it.



"I will always miss you only... can't remember..." when i read this comment below the rainy photo of our memory, my heart felt hurt... This is the past. It's really long time ago.. I should leave everything left.
but memory brought me back to remember our conversation and our happiness once we had. Whenver I come to think of it, those happiness are irreplaceable. I will never have in my life as the same happiness and sweet moment like before.

Also, when i think of our promise and words, I happens to laugh as those are nothing else now and even nearly forgot. At that time, we were deadly serious and everything concerned with us were all the matters of us in every single things and emotions. We deeply cared..

Now, things are totally difference for us. You run for your life over there, and I am wrapped up with my own life. Anyway, I do miss you sometime. will you feel surprised and tell me that I am cold-blooded?

:)

Thanks for you always...as you make me to love chinese songs. This is the only thing I get it from you. I am now so in touch with chinese songs and I remember you when i listen to chinese songs.

Where are you?

Where are you...................
lost of contact.................
..
.
.
.
.
misses

My 1st day of school after holidays with no holiday mood

My not-so-called school holidays ended and school opened on Monday.
I was terribly busy on the 1st day as I have my final presentation for Yahoo! project competition. So, It's the first time I needed to apply LOA (Leave Of Absence) on the 1st school day. But, I went to the school in that morning to attend 9 am tutorial for tourism informatics subject. I was unable to attend 2 hrs fully. I left the class at 10 and went straight to the prject lab to rehearse the presentation demo with my team mate. At around 10:40 am, We set off the school by taking a cab.

Its lucky to take a cab as It's raining heavily suddenly. We practiced again for the presentation scripts and felt a bit nervous.

When we reached to the competition's location Suntac city, We ate food a bit and went to the office room at sky level, Suntac city.

our presentation time slot from 12 to 2 pm for 6 teams and lastly, our team is the last one to present, ;(. We listened and saw all the way the other teams presented and made us feeling tense.

When our turns come, we can present smoothly at least. That's unexpected as I am weak at presentation skills. :(

After finishing the presentation, my team mate went back home and I set off to school again to apply LOA and attend 3 hrs lab from 3 to 6 pm. the lab tutor took full time till 6 pm and the whole lab lessons was all brain storming and needed to think a lot of ideas to present in front of the class again.. My brain really didn't work well as I didn't sleep the whole Sunday night and when i reached home, my eyes turned outs red and my headache started to kill me. I wanted to sleep quickly but....
unwanted problem come out for my major project grouping. As one of my friend wanted my major project team mate suddenly. Oh...How can it be possible as almost things were arranged earlier?? Sometime, things are complicated to solve from both sides. No one is blamed. I even didn't want to speak out but I was able to settle all those stupid things around 10 pm.

I wanted to sleep yet I made a call to my parents but only met with my brother and chit chat about me and him. after that, i quickly went to the bed and fall asleep at around 10:30 pm till the next morning.. Kheww...Kheww...Khewwwwwwwwww, Khweee, Khweee... :P

Pheww....Such a terrible and tired day.

I needs song, song to listen..for me..

here, song for you all and me =)

this song is old song of MLTR. breaking my heart. I kept listening during my project progressing time as I felt like someone is breaking my heart intentionally. forget it.!

Stay happy and Jiyo!!!

down

how long i can pretend?
who know?

I hate you, and the way you look at me and the way you look down upon me..

your behaviour make me myself feeling so inferior..

This is what i can do.
This is what i have done.
I can only do what i can.
Don't expect from me too much..
I am not expert or super geek..
I just try hard as i can.
I am just normal. not clever or intelligent too much.



the way you look down on me make me sad and feeling small rather than growing anger..

i feel so sad....
i feel so sad....

it's enough telling all about things happening to me to my parents..
I must rather deserved and go through it..
yes.

because of me, I hate me, myself also..
i will not be able to blame you also. Rather, i assume as a force..

i just not satisfied by myself only..
all what happened, every mistake i did, i changed and changed but the situation is worse and worse. i also can't help..

so i will extend my limit as much as i can..


butt...

Ok. thats enough. enough. enough.

enough.
enough.
enough.
enough..

really thank you... ;(

thank you...really really..

p.s, I miss hui..sorry i am not able to make a call..
i need you in this time but let it be....

i am still holding...

days are touched and bored.

so tired..

keep learning..and still boring..

me, i only do 2 things almost everyday, sitting in front of computer and sleeping.

why i like sleeping so much? no wonder weight gains fastly..

today, i went to my teacher house and gathered with other friends. we cooked and ate together...had fun and relaxed.. i am hoping for countless sincere laughters.. :)

Random thoughts..

I have many things unfinished..i think i can handle within the time given.
doing this project is really troublesome to me but I love programming so much..so I must do it..

this school holiday is really not special to me..I just spend my time on the school project and just have fun on my own..rest of my friends are doing part time jobs well and earn their own bucks..

currently, milk issue in china is really burst almost in the news..but I keep drinking MEIJI milk bottle as I like and its not in the warning list luckily..


I am feeling progressive mood and I am looking forward good things that will happen to me sooner.. I wish..I hope..

recently, I am listening "tear drops" by the radio..
the singer's voice is so awesome..i have never heard those kind of god-given-voice..
i am feeling cool down while listening to his voices..

suddenly I remembered what my friend commented on me..In MSN, me and he is sometime sharing songs...
So, I share those kinda slow songs to him via MSN..he said to me suddently,
"Do you notice by yourself?"
I said, " nope, whats wrong with me",
Then, He said, " But, I know, you changed a lot"..
he continued, " last time, you used to listen fast songs like Techno, Trance, you liked a lot", Now, you started to listen slow song..".
I felt surprised on what he said to me. Yeah..I even didn't notice what have changed on me.. Yes. I admit it..Now, I like to listen slow songs..but one thing I sure know myself is that I used to change my mind, my like and dislike.. :)

This post is so random right? yeah...
I feel missing my home, my cat and the people I used to belong before..

Although I keep moving forward, my mind's still looking back the happiness once I had..because I know that kind of happiness, joy will never come back to me with the same feeling..

"Love is like a cigarette that starts with flush and ends with ash."

I miss one of July month.. [ started with flush ]
I miss one of October end..[ ended with ash ]
I miss December 31st.. [ My last call ]
I miss January 31st.... [ My birthday, on that day, received bday wish sms as
promised. ]
I miss February 28th.. [ your birthday and I didn't make a wish ]

awww... I owned a lot of remembrance..Its over 1 year plus..
I miss the conversation on long long ago..
but anyway, someone has already occupied..and have own life.I am happy for you, at least..
for me, i am still the same.............

elise Dancing

I dedicated this song to my mom.
every time I feel upset, every time humanity society's cruel testings to me,
every time peer's attitude attacking, I merely stand up and move forward to my road..
I shakenly walk along straight to my road..

there is always someone who guiding me, giving encourage than warming and
giving the way how to avoid those attack and the way to handle, my mom.......

When i am feeling in schizophrenic mood or dilemma peroid, i am always making calls regardless of how much it cost. ( I am further studying here and me and my parents are in different places) because I only see in my eyes as my mom always blow away my doubts, my lose, my sorrow.and replace with energy and encourage...

I love mom..love u so much..
miss you so much..

Feeling not good

I still left one paper on Tuesday. That paper is Business subject that I hate most among I studied yet I still can manage it luckily.

Today, I am really feeling not good.

Sometime, people are funny. They are like fools that they can change their mind within an hour and can treat two faces..

I also really don't understand that I damn hate those capable people to act like this.

Looking at them and thinking myself make me really feeling tense.

But, I can neglect it anyway.

More, "Take occasional risk". I like these words so much. Yes. To step higher a bit, we need to face risk. We need to test ourself through the harsh time, putting tremendous effort and patience. At least, we will get return valuable to our lives apart from winnng or losing.

We will get different experiences from it and can move forward from practices, mistakes and learning from others.

Yes.. I need society. I need educated and welcome society to teach me, to let me share and learn from them and vise visa.

be participant and be the helper at the same time.

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road

A present Song for you as usual.

this song name is "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" by Elton John,my favorite singer.
I liked that song since my childhood life as my uncle always used to listen those songs. My grandmother's house was next to my house. My uncle stayed together with my grandmother. At that time, I was too young and my mother was very strict and didn't let to listen songs so much. So, I only had a chance to listen if my uncled played cassette. How poor I was..So,Even while I was on my study chair,if my uncle listened the songs, I always opened my windows wide from my home and listened silently..
Since that time, I was familiar with those good old songs such as EBBA, James Ding and so on..and still like those kinda songs...I also hope you all will like this song so much as the lyric is also full of meaning..



Enjoy the great weekend and spend the time wisely :)

CHEERS!!! :)

Oh Ghost Month again!

August 1. Here come again for Ghost month for Singapore. The history says that the Gate of Hell is opened and ghosts are set to be free to come to the earth.
At that time, people offers candles, fruit, paper money and even paper car like properties and burnt it so that those ghosts will have those kinds of food,properties.

People are very careful in this month. They even careful while they pass by the pedestrians road that a lot of things are burnt for those hungry ghost. If they press those things by foot, they believe that unlucky things will be chasing all around.
Those are what I knew from my local SG friends.

So, Late night outing are strictly allowed for children,even me, I rarely went out lately in August because ghosts are going around everywhere..

today's evening, I came back from school with my friend because she always bring home back with her bicycle :) , I saw people were very busy all along the road by placing the food and candles light at the side of the road and praying..
While riding the bicycle, my friends said, "See, people started to busy with those praying" and she continued saying that, in the morning when she rode to school, she suddenly crossed those staffs and she said that she mumbled quickly that its not her fault. it's her bicycle faults. :) when she said that word, I can't help to laugh though my goose pimple came out on my skin. :)

Waiting for you by Anson Hu

Hello all,

weekend again...time flies so fast..I am tired of daily routine after friday..
i think you too..will be same as me..
here, I would like to share to listen chinese song.." Waiting for you by Anson Hu"..
you may know that song..because that song is recommended song by countless music lover :) as far as I knew..
this song, I used to listen since long time as my chinese friend let me hear that song..
but since i listened it, I can't help to listen everyday..so I hunted to d/l and now this song is in my hand..

please, let me know if you want to get it from me. I am most willing to send it..

Enjoy weekends and appreciate the people around you..!!
Keep smile :)))

btw, I am not chinese, but I love to listen to chinese song and always try to understand the lyrics also..then below the song, I left the translated lyrics for you all....that's not my own translation..I googled and got it from there..so, the lyric not so smoothen to understand till your deep heart...but I wish you will appreciate it.. :)




Waiting for you english lyrics by Anson Hu


golden dancing shoes
paired with music
baby your eyes are a bay of deep lakewater
suddely bright and then suddenly extinguished,
they hide unimaginable beauty

let me feel dazed near the edge of a cliff,
who knew once i opened my eyes
you were nowwhere to be seen

Waiting for you..I'm waiting for you..
waiting for you kiss me at the night..
Why, Cinderella, did you
leave me missing you as far as the eye can see..?
waiting for you...I'm waiting for you..
waiting for you come here to my dream..
I lead you to spin continuously (*as in dancing)
until your black hair turns silver..
Waiting for you..waiting for you until forever..

Craze on Hanakimi (taiwanese version)

Recently I am craze on watching over and over to Hanakimi taiwanese version..
because its too funny acting in most of the episode and soundtrack are type of my like. :)
besides, haha..yeah ..actor wu zun so cute and he is a good body builder.. :)
also, Ella is so cute to be boyish..
so, I am always hunting information about those two..and I found out one korean song from youtube..

I am not so sure the title of that song but it's about praising about birthday wish song..really good to listen it..

below, I share for you all..enjoy the songs and cute ella motion..

have a great weekend ahead..to you all..

Broke gal

Yesterday, I got reminder letter for overdue phone bill.
Last month, my expense is over my limit. :)
I made countless overseas call to my parents and friend because using Int' calling card gives sometime problem. Even can't make a call but detucts many minutes.
Also, I am currently using two phone as I can't cancel the old one as service provider will be charged a lot if i cancel because my old number's contract is not yet met.It still needs months to go on. damnn. ;(
Besides, I spent over on my personal things and food as I am a big eater. :)
So, my bank balance shows low credits. :)
one thing I become peniless is one of my friends who borrowed some money from me.
So, in my hand, I have only merely $50. How I can handle this till mid of this month?.. I am also afraid to ask from my parents becouse of my over expense :)..
Just waiting for my parents to send money..

be happy and healthy to my parents..
a lot of thanks and gratitudes I own on you as your daughter is spendthrift. :D

What a day?

today is a bit tired.
since early morning .. woke up with bad dream.
then prepare to go 1 kinda event that i was unwilling to go. but by forced.~!

The 1st time seeing the president of this country very closely..nothing else..

after that event, still got appointment but has been canceled and postponed to monday..yay..unlucky day..not smoothy as I think..

Then,going home is so damn boring today than before I did..

The worst thing for to day is when I saw your face..
how I should try to be pleased by you? no way. I will not stand on your way if I am not wrong...even I am alone.. I will not stand on your way.
I am really in a bad mood today..really don't have energy to argue as there is no point..It's better leave me alone..

It is enough for me being myself..
I am really feeling unsatisfed, sad, blank, cold, dumb.

Chasing Pavements by Adelle

Music is my another window of mind. When I feel down, I am used to listen this song.
Listening to music is better than doing nothing and feeling burning.
anyway, I can release my sorrow on the music for a while though it's not the right way to solve the problem or to overcome the sorrowness.

Here you go, I hope you all will like it.


Best Wishes!

Unlucky Day

Today's unlucky day for me. Damn. I got school email leter that my lab test for 1 subject got D+..I am so so shocked and suprised when I saw that letter. I don't know whats wrong with me and the paper and him(lecturer).

Actually, lab test is quite easy and that's open book and everything's from the book.
I did well done on that paper. Besides, I double trible countless checked my answers and questions and even spellings and every single little things. but now, the result's not what I expected. I feel very sad feeling like crying in my chest.
I know may be he also can't be wrong and I also not too much terrible to get D+.
I emailed back to him to know what's my weakness in the test answers.
I hope that should be human error or typo error in email by him..
Regardless of my hard working, If i did the worst in that test, at least I should get C or C+ as some of my classmates who never attends and didn't know any single things about the subject got C or D+. So, I think I can't be too much wrong.
Right now I feel wierd. I don't know what should I do now. This week is my term break holidays week. I have to finish 2 assignments in this week but I really don't have energy to do it. I nearly want to give up and run away.

What's wrong?? what's wrong with it??


Please, I dont want to down MY GPA..

during these days, weather is damn hot..but now it's around 11:30 night and rain is starting to pour slowly..
suddenly i feel relax and become moody..so, i stop doing my work..and start writing this post..
i still remember that since i was young, i always sit infront of my room's corridor and hanging my legs down and let this heavy rain wet on my body..
some people who passed by my house looked at me and..said.."hey gal, be careful and you will be freezy and get flu.." hahaz..i didn't care..i only cared about rain..rain drop touching on my skin..

my friends also know i am crazy about rain. Most understand my like whereas some thought that i am so romantic and childish..
Nope, i am totally not romantic. 70% not childish. i also don't had those kinds of romantic stories in the rain.
i just simply love rain..simply love raining days and ignorantly like rainy season..

besides, i love coffee. i drunk coffee (rough coffee)before instant coffee. its too bitter..but i like it so much and drunk together with my parents every morning when i was young. In university life in my country, my addicted to coffee is too worse. everyday i drink more than 10 cup of coffee. i drink when i angry, i drink when i am sorry i drink when i am hungry...i drink when i am free. at that time, i change to drink to instant coffee because it's easy to drink..my parents always send a carton of coffee box twice a month and i also buy myself..the result is i can't sleep at night well. its the worst in the exam period..i can't memorize well because of not enough sleeping. i was shocked and i stopped suddenly drinking coffee. but i can't stand. i drunk again after few weeks but i reduced my drinking rate..but now i mostly drink whenever i feel buzy and down..

since last year, i change my drinking style, i don't drink the instant coffee directly..i put it on the hot plate for 10 mins before i drink..so the smell of coffee is so nice and really nice taste..

very strangely, all my exs including my love don't like coffee and rain and said i am crazy and they laugh..but as times go on, i change a bit and a bit..i tried to abandon these 2 things in my life..but it still not succeed..
i am born with these rain and coffee..i love i love it lotts..

14th June 2008

today, i am damn happy..
i got contact with my friend who're one of my close friends.
during these days, i am missing her so much and i keep sending email to her..but didn't get any reply..
luckly today she replied my email and said she rarely use internet there..
ohter than that, she will come here in August to work here..
at once, i am so happy..and don't know how to express my feeling but suddenlty all of the plans come into my mind if she come in august..my mind already planed out where to hang out with her if she is there..and so on so on..
she said she want to stay with me and ask for whether there is room available or not..
actually, there is no room for her, i will try to stay with her..
whatever, I am so happy if we both together again to have fun and make countless happy days...

love you my best friend..

Dang Ni by Cindy Wang

English lyrics

If one day I return to the past
return to the beginning of me
will you feel that I'm not bad?
If one day I leave you for a far place
could no longer meet you
will you feel that I have said goodbye?

* When you narrow your eyes for a smile
when you drink Coke, when you make noise
I want to treat you well, but you never know
thinking of you has became my hobby

# When you spoke of today's worries
when you said you could not sleep at night
I wanted to tell you but I am afraid I say it wrongly
I like you very much, do you know that?

If one day dream comes true
Memories has became forever, will you still remember today
If one day we feel that
Actually anything is possible
No matter if it will stay here or not

(repeat)　＊,＃

Maybe emptiness caused me to think too much
Maybe I should return to my quilt, we will meet in my dream
Then I will not hesitant to tell you loudly what I want to say

(repeat)　＊

la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
I wanted to tell you but I am afraid I say it wrongly
I like you very much, do you know that?
la la la la la　 la la la la la


since i listened to that song, the lyrics really sink into my mind..
i love it..
I hope you all also will like that song.

The End

during these days,things are happening without even notice and after i know when i noticed about it, it's too late already. but i didn't feel any regret for it because i prepared for how to be stray away from hurt since I saw the reality in your eyes..but it hit me a bit and made me speachless for few days..
there is so much i wish to tell you..but no more chance..let it be..but at least, i am still me after realising everything. yeah i m still me..I will not pretend i am ok..but I m really fine and ok..i m trying more and more..coz I want to show you it's really me..I want you to see me I am on the right track with my head up..
this is the last time i make my feeling into ashes to blow away..I will not remember that we were happy once..I will not remember we had fight and tears..you are not me and I will not be your part anymore for all the changes you made and all the ignorance i made..
I will not lead myself into bottomless hole..andI learn i know words and promises doesn't work for me..you push me to become i am more and more hard to believe in something or someone else..Yes I am and I will be to become like this because I don't want any painfulness..so you will not see me i am crying behind...
No more no less..everything's done..and i m on my way and have brighter days..YEAH!!

Alive again

my last blog's already gone. I was damn buzy with my stuffs.
and now when I tried to log in my blog, I already forgot my password and..this admin sent the password recovery to my 2nd email account but that 2nd email account which I never used since long long ago..
so just started to create a new blog as I am a bit free and like to write post to share..

I am alive again.