Random thoughts..

I have many things unfinished..i think i can handle within the time given.
doing this project is really troublesome to me but I love programming so much..so I must do it..

this school holiday is really not special to me..I just spend my time on the school project and just have fun on my own..rest of my friends are doing part time jobs well and earn their own bucks..

currently, milk issue in china is really burst almost in the news..but I keep drinking MEIJI milk bottle as I like and its not in the warning list luckily..


I am feeling progressive mood and I am looking forward good things that will happen to me sooner.. I wish..I hope..

recently, I am listening "tear drops" by the radio..
the singer's voice is so awesome..i have never heard those kind of god-given-voice..
i am feeling cool down while listening to his voices..

suddenly I remembered what my friend commented on me..In MSN, me and he is sometime sharing songs...
So, I share those kinda slow songs to him via MSN..he said to me suddently,
"Do you notice by yourself?"
I said, " nope, whats wrong with me",
Then, He said, " But, I know, you changed a lot"..
he continued, " last time, you used to listen fast songs like Techno, Trance, you liked a lot", Now, you started to listen slow song..".
I felt surprised on what he said to me. Yeah..I even didn't notice what have changed on me.. Yes. I admit it..Now, I like to listen slow songs..but one thing I sure know myself is that I used to change my mind, my like and dislike.. :)

This post is so random right? yeah...
I feel missing my home, my cat and the people I used to belong before..

Although I keep moving forward, my mind's still looking back the happiness once I had..because I know that kind of happiness, joy will never come back to me with the same feeling..

"Love is like a cigarette that starts with flush and ends with ash."

I miss one of July month.. [ started with flush ]
I miss one of October end..[ ended with ash ]
I miss December 31st.. [ My last call ]
I miss January 31st.... [ My birthday, on that day, received bday wish sms as
promised. ]
I miss February 28th.. [ your birthday and I didn't make a wish ]

awww... I owned a lot of remembrance..Its over 1 year plus..
I miss the conversation on long long ago..
but anyway, someone has already occupied..and have own life.I am happy for you, at least..
for me, i am still the same.............

elise Dancing

I dedicated this song to my mom.
every time I feel upset, every time humanity society's cruel testings to me,
every time peer's attitude attacking, I merely stand up and move forward to my road..
I shakenly walk along straight to my road..

there is always someone who guiding me, giving encourage than warming and
giving the way how to avoid those attack and the way to handle, my mom.......

When i am feeling in schizophrenic mood or dilemma peroid, i am always making calls regardless of how much it cost. ( I am further studying here and me and my parents are in different places) because I only see in my eyes as my mom always blow away my doubts, my lose, my sorrow.and replace with energy and encourage...

I love mom..love u so much..
miss you so much..