that remind me.

When I went through to your friendster profile,Suddenly, I saw the photo comments you gave in one old photo. I was surprised how all the comments you deleted appeared again in your profile. Anyway, I was happy for the last comment you gave on dec because, i never see it before. that comment is after we broke up and after few months, you wrote it.



"I will always miss you only... can't remember..." when i read this comment below the rainy photo of our memory, my heart felt hurt... This is the past. It's really long time ago.. I should leave everything left.
but memory brought me back to remember our conversation and our happiness once we had. Whenver I come to think of it, those happiness are irreplaceable. I will never have in my life as the same happiness and sweet moment like before.

Also, when i think of our promise and words, I happens to laugh as those are nothing else now and even nearly forgot. At that time, we were deadly serious and everything concerned with us were all the matters of us in every single things and emotions. We deeply cared..

Now, things are totally difference for us. You run for your life over there, and I am wrapped up with my own life. Anyway, I do miss you sometime. will you feel surprised and tell me that I am cold-blooded?

:)

Thanks for you always...as you make me to love chinese songs. This is the only thing I get it from you. I am now so in touch with chinese songs and I remember you when i listen to chinese songs.

Where are you?

Where are you...................
lost of contact.................
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misses

My 1st day of school after holidays with no holiday mood

My not-so-called school holidays ended and school opened on Monday.
I was terribly busy on the 1st day as I have my final presentation for Yahoo! project competition. So, It's the first time I needed to apply LOA (Leave Of Absence) on the 1st school day. But, I went to the school in that morning to attend 9 am tutorial for tourism informatics subject. I was unable to attend 2 hrs fully. I left the class at 10 and went straight to the prject lab to rehearse the presentation demo with my team mate. At around 10:40 am, We set off the school by taking a cab.

Its lucky to take a cab as It's raining heavily suddenly. We practiced again for the presentation scripts and felt a bit nervous.

When we reached to the competition's location Suntac city, We ate food a bit and went to the office room at sky level, Suntac city.

our presentation time slot from 12 to 2 pm for 6 teams and lastly, our team is the last one to present, ;(. We listened and saw all the way the other teams presented and made us feeling tense.

When our turns come, we can present smoothly at least. That's unexpected as I am weak at presentation skills. :(

After finishing the presentation, my team mate went back home and I set off to school again to apply LOA and attend 3 hrs lab from 3 to 6 pm. the lab tutor took full time till 6 pm and the whole lab lessons was all brain storming and needed to think a lot of ideas to present in front of the class again.. My brain really didn't work well as I didn't sleep the whole Sunday night and when i reached home, my eyes turned outs red and my headache started to kill me. I wanted to sleep quickly but....
unwanted problem come out for my major project grouping. As one of my friend wanted my major project team mate suddenly. Oh...How can it be possible as almost things were arranged earlier?? Sometime, things are complicated to solve from both sides. No one is blamed. I even didn't want to speak out but I was able to settle all those stupid things around 10 pm.

I wanted to sleep yet I made a call to my parents but only met with my brother and chit chat about me and him. after that, i quickly went to the bed and fall asleep at around 10:30 pm till the next morning.. Kheww...Kheww...Khewwwwwwwwww, Khweee, Khweee... :P

Pheww....Such a terrible and tired day.

I needs song, song to listen..for me..

here, song for you all and me =)

this song is old song of MLTR. breaking my heart. I kept listening during my project progressing time as I felt like someone is breaking my heart intentionally. forget it.!

Stay happy and Jiyo!!!

down

how long i can pretend?
who know?

I hate you, and the way you look at me and the way you look down upon me..

your behaviour make me myself feeling so inferior..

This is what i can do.
This is what i have done.
I can only do what i can.
Don't expect from me too much..
I am not expert or super geek..
I just try hard as i can.
I am just normal. not clever or intelligent too much.



the way you look down on me make me sad and feeling small rather than growing anger..

i feel so sad....
i feel so sad....

it's enough telling all about things happening to me to my parents..
I must rather deserved and go through it..
yes.

because of me, I hate me, myself also..
i will not be able to blame you also. Rather, i assume as a force..

i just not satisfied by myself only..
all what happened, every mistake i did, i changed and changed but the situation is worse and worse. i also can't help..

so i will extend my limit as much as i can..


butt...

Ok. thats enough. enough. enough.

enough.
enough.
enough.
enough..

really thank you... ;(

thank you...really really..

p.s, I miss hui..sorry i am not able to make a call..
i need you in this time but let it be....

i am still holding...

days are touched and bored.

so tired..

keep learning..and still boring..

me, i only do 2 things almost everyday, sitting in front of computer and sleeping.

why i like sleeping so much? no wonder weight gains fastly..

today, i went to my teacher house and gathered with other friends. we cooked and ate together...had fun and relaxed.. i am hoping for countless sincere laughters.. :)