I think i still can't reduce my expense on phone bills.. my parents keep scolding me as i use both int'l card and my hand phones for calling them. I also can't terminate my old number coz that number is only different 1 digit with my my h.p from my country.
i must spend wisely from now on wards especially for phone bills.
I am sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you but I must tell you sometime. I know this may arise unhappiness between us. but I kept set my goal lower and lower because of you. sometime, I want to be alone to handle everything rather than taking care and worries for the mistakes you did because it makes me tired and absorbed my energy too much more than usual.
I wish you understand my willingness and I wish you see your mistakes and weakness.
raining heavily but I am not happy. my mind is so confused of recent matters. its better to swallow my words than speaking out. I don't want you to be sad and feel small also.
suddenly realising i’ve stood still for a long while, not knowing where to go the me that still doesn’t want to return home, only gets lonelier when accompanied by more people。 there has been many topics concerning me, even I’ve heard of them my happiness has to be recognised, yet my grievances are not spoken of the night peels the heart like an onion, what remains after it is removed of its defence? why is it i miss you much more when i am weak and fragile ? if you’ve heard too, have you thought of me? as the usual old friend or would you still be concerned about me? there is so much i wish to tell you one heart is left hanging without landing how to be responsible, can’t bear to, but also helpless if you’ve heard too, will you believe me? would you go along with the rumors or you know that i am still me understanding a lot more after the falls and knocks you are the only one waiting for me the warmth still resides in my chest when i think of you thinking of me there has been many topics concerning me, even i’ve heard of them i think i would rather be silent as explaining would only seem to be for show the night peels the heart like an onion, what remains after it is removed of its defence? why is it i miss you much more when i am weak and fragile? if you’ve heard too, have you thought of me? as the usual old friend or would you still be concerned bout me? understanding a lot more after the falls and knocks you are the only waiting for me the warmth still resides in my chest when i think of you thinking of me if you think of me, what would you think of?
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I really was no mood today. I just need to wait for what's coming to me. why people make the things to become important and all the matters of world? why can't let the things just go by as they are?? I feel that I was disturbed by that way? Instead, I should be said properly with some kinda reasons.
It doesn't matter for me whatever may come to me. I can be accepted.
at least you should reply my email. you changed your number too. i didn't know what's the problem with you and your work. I just only know you resigned work recently.
