buried in the past?

another year is already coming..
this is the start of journey and
still i am bringing along the past..
yet you have left almost the things you feel the most.
but i can't still turn off all those things..i am holding on..
i love you and i still do..

you said..those are the most hurt things and the pains deepest..
you said..at last you know how to put down everything..
you said..let all the sadness be a past and..
you said..so no need to think so much...
just push aside your new goals..is it possible for you to forget everything that your used-to-be..and the thoughts sticking to your mind?

in a certain situation, you may forget..
in a certain struggle time, you might forget..but
there are always time for the thoughts that make you smile and cry..and
the things that your heart is always listening will never turn off from your mind..i know..

I am not happy.
i am seeing different of you...and feeling like a knife turned inside my chest..
I will be waiting a day that you will call me again when you need me in deed..
like before, i still can feel, hurt so much when it comes to think of you..

i wish you get a job sooner..and happy with your life over there.

this is a dream.

this early morning before i woke up, i was dream of you..
in that dream, you're strange to me..and all fr you looks like pretends..

i knew that our connection is end soon..since i got your reply mails..

you changed totally that i didn't expected. i also didn't hope so much but that make my feeling upon you to the most down side and feel like suddenly stop for my warmth to you..

I know i am also too serious..i know that's not good for me..
i should stop of dreaming about you, caring about you,holding so-called left attachment to you...should stop...should stop.......................

=)

=)

haha..

you are my baby anyway! you are! yes.

i like this feeling.

Your Anthony Chang Song............

Anthony Chang ( 郑伟康 )-倔强爱着你

stepping into another year..and i never wanted to think back..but..
yesterday, i saw ur ex blog and she wrote a post of memory of 2007..and she mentioned that she was lost of contact with you recently. haha..all ex are still remembering you and..did you call her and talked her like you did the same to me after broke up?? i don't wanna think whatever it is.
Chinese new year is coming soon and i know you will go back to your hometown, miri...


Although I am also lost of contact with you, i remember you...and here, i posted two songs that you liked to listen before as new year presents for you.

wishing you have a good job and happy life over there..
and..i wonder when you will contact me and give me your new number..
anyway, it doesn't matter whatever you do, but never disappear without notices..